|Posted by Apostle Ramona Haswell on November 14, 2014 at 4:25 PM||comments (0)|
My most earliest memories of Dr. Myles Munroe go back to the early 1990's. One particular time I recall was when he delivered the message on "Purpose" which inspired the following poem:
By Angel-heart Garrison
(c) January 23, 1992
Inspired by Dr. Myles Munroe
With the words of Your mouth came the existence of all that is
except with Your own hands You formed clay into
what is called 'man' today.
With the words of Your mouth You spoke unto the land
which produced all that is and once dead, will go back again.
But with Your own words, You spoke unto Yourself
and breathed into this clay and made it spirit man
complete with soul and flesh.
And that house of clay, though temporary allows this spirit man
to walk and commune with the earth, and sea and land.
But what is so extraordinary
is that I am so much a part of You.
And though far away I've sometimes felt I know You never left.
And as for me, I could not withdraw
from one of which I am so much a part.
For as the tree cannot exist without the soil nor the sun without the gas
Without you, oh most Holy God, I know I cannot last.
Forgetting, oh, my natural heritage that takes me back to Adam
one more step, takes me directly to my God in heaven.
My God, my Creator of whom I am one with
Finally! I am closer to Your reasoning behind my existence.
No matter how I came to be on this earth, I know
It was not a mistake it was what You pur-posed.
Spirit (seed) is what was planted and as Your daughter
respectfully, I can call you (Abba Father) daddy
and accept that I am more like You and begin to live as you planned me to.
For as the seasons pass, we all know almost nothing lasts
flowers will wither and again return to soil
so will the trees and grass and cattle and the house of clay once formed.
But as final as it may all seem for me there is eternity
For I glory that my spirit man will at last return unto thee.
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|Posted by Apostle Ramona Haswell on July 27, 2011 at 3:50 AM||comments (0)|
"As you know, I had the privilege of going back this past weekend to visit my first Los Angeles based church home where I was invited to participate in our 40th Anniversary Celebration to sing with my former Inspirational Choir.
It was more like a reunion with old faces and old songs.
Our dress rehearsal on Saturday was very anointed and spiritually emotional. And if you would like to share in this experience with me, you are invited to go into our Lighthouse of Prayer FB Group and view the photos. It was just awesome; for lack of a better word to express myself.
You may not understand why this weekend was so profound to me. But as I stated on my status, many times, this experience, brought my life full circle.
It reminded me….. “where I came from”.
This is the church where my first marriage failed with battery and physical abuse and where I found solace in music.
It was the words in that music that ignited the desire in me to find the place that could confirm the word that was burning like fire in my spirit.
This is the church where I heard the call to step into the person that I am now.
It was not until my 3-year old daughter was diagnosed with 4th stage cancer and given 1 week to live that I began to….. understand that call.
These are the people (at that church) who even though I had already moved away, prayed in agreement with me and stood on the front line with me in fasting and prayer for my daughter’s healing when she was in the hospital bed in Children’s Hospital in Los Angeles and had surgery after surgery and received the miracle of healing.
This is the church that knew me. They knew some of my issues. They understood my situation. They encouraged me to seek the Lord. They helped me when I could not help myself. And they saw my tears when they did not know the depths of the secrets that I was carrying.
And it was those issues that as I walked away from them…from that music…from that church… that God was able to use to develop me into His Ordained Minister, Prophetess and Teacher who walks in great Authority….. Prophesying and Teaching “thus saith the Lord”.
You have no idea what I have been through.
I have many books. And I suggest if you want to get to know me, you should buy every book that I publish, because my trials and tribulations cannot fit in just one book.
And with all that I’ve endured, withstood and persevered through, I know with all my heart that I could not have had victory without the Sovereignty of our Most High God.
You don’t realize that it was because God is Sovereign, that I am able to stand before you today and express all this to you.
You see, my book, as Sis. Rhonda talked about; “My Substitute” is about all what I just told you about and then some.
My life right now is coming full circle with the publication of my autobiographical book, “My Substitute”.
This book emphasizes the Sovereignty of God.
Because God is Sovereign, He did what He wanted to do with me and all my issues…
and He brought me here, right here, in His right now timing…
and brought my life FULL CIRCLE so that I don’t have to look back anymore as He is taking me forward.
I wrote on our FB status yesterday, that God chooses to forget, let go of; He chooses to forgive and forget our sin. And he says that you don’t have the right to judge past sins that He has forgiven.
And because He has wiped my slate clean, and brought me full circle now…in His Sovereignty, I can press on! And not look back.
If it had not been for the Sovereignty of God, His grace, mercy and favor; you will find out when you read my book, that I didn’t deserve to get my daughter back healed and whole. Because I show you a glimpse of who I was while I was still at that church that I visited this past weekend; a glimpse of who I was before I walked in the gifts of the spirit that are spoken of in the 5th Chapter of the New Testament Book of Galatians; a glimpse of who I was before this woman you listen to on these teleconferences, interact with on facebook.
If you saw me back then, you would not know me. It wasn’t just the years that have passed that some of my church friends who saw me this weekend didn’t know who I was; it was that the old man was passed away and I am now a new creature, a new creation, because of my trials and tribulations that has been brought to this place of newness…
Because the Sovereignty of the God that created the world decided that I would be able to contain the blessing, He gave me back what I was willing to release.
If God would judge us in our own righteousness, we would all fail; I know I would have certainly failed when he was judging me back then.
Who has the right to be offended in His ways? In His choice to do what He did for me?
He is Sovereign.
My daughter, who lives and is healed and whole, does not remember this experience.
Because she was only 3 years old, getting ready to turn 4 soon, she says what she does remember is like a dream.
So what happened to her, was for me.
It happened because I could not hear His still small voice as I was being battered or even before I married the batterer.
I could not hear His still small voice until death stood at my daughter’s bedside saying, “God wants her for His flower garden”.
And in my right ear, I heard God softly whisper in my ear, “if I wanted her, I could come and sit down beside her.” He told me to follow Him. And from that moment on, I refused to accept the cunning words of the enemy as my daughter’s destiny.
Like Peter, walking on the water, I kept my eyes so focused on Jesus through that storm, so much so that people thought that I didn’t understand what was going on.
And even though, through all that my daughter suffered, it was worth what I went through to become who I am today. I would not change a thing.
God in His Sovereignty saw me in the future and chose to discard what He knew about me, take me through what I needed to go through to become who He needed me to be.
His plan in my purpose as Jeremiah 29:11 tells us, is being fulfilled as I stand here before you, Elder/Prophetess & Teacher, Founder & Visionary of Angel-heart Garrison Ministries.
Because had I not gone through what I went through, all has come full circle as I walk forward and as God is shifting, transitioning and positioning the atmosphere relative to Angel-heart Garrison Ministries."
Elder & Prophetess Ramona Haswell
(aka: Angel-heart Garrison)
To hear more, listen to her podcast entitled, "God is Sovereign", at: www.talkshoe.com/tc/89323 dated July 20, 2011
|Posted by Apostle Ramona Haswell on March 29, 2011 at 6:04 PM||comments (0)|
Well, I dropped my daughter off at the airport this morning and it was drama all morning. From the time she woke up until…well, she’s still waiting at her connection at LAX, on her way to visit her brother and sister-in-law in Hawaii whom she hasn’t seen for two years.
Well it all started when I woke up this morning to make sure she was up and ready to go. But she abruptly informed me she had inaccurately given me the departure time for her flight and that she had an additional hour that she was going to use to catch up on her sleep; and dropped her head back on her pillow and fell back to sleep.
Well she’d told me that her plan was that we’d leave for the airport by 7:00 a.m., so a few minutes later (5 seemingly to her) I knocked on her door and reminded her of the time. When she finally jumped out of the bed wondering where she was and what day it was, she slowly pulled herself together and began completing her packing and preparing herself to leave. And while she was “getting it together”, I took a few more minutes walking the floor, praying and thanking the Lord for protection, covering and her safe travel.
Well, after rushing the old folks & the dog into the car, I’m reluctant to say, the trip to the airport was a wild ride, because she was of course, running late now, and she was driving to ensure she reached her destination on time! I reminded her that whenever she’s running late, she should ‘shave time’ in the house, not on the road. And she reminded me, the people on the street were the problem. Oh, yeah, she wasn’t Ms Holy today. She was operating under pressure; the perfect conditions for satan to use to his discretion. Today she was operating in her carnal self. So I thought it might be a good time (as she was entering into the airport terminal) to give her the word that the Lord had placed in my spirit for her today. So, as my stomach was settling from the ride, I said to her, “But let patience have [her] perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.” So you don’t have to search it out, that’s James 1:4.
I dared not say she needed to pray for patience, because God knows I don’t want to have to pray through tribulation, for sure. (Romans 5:3) So I was careful how I gave that word to her, letting her know that though it was obvious that she had “need of patience”, God revealed to me that she needed to learn how to allow “patience” to operate “in perfection” within her spirit man (so that she could do as the poem I wrote so long ago, “THE NOW OF LIFE” says) to help her get through.
So when she got out of the car and abruptly said goodbye to her mother and her little doggie, Sasha; I glanced at my husband carrying her luggage to the outside baggage handlers, then bringing it back to car. And in my amazement, I asked, “what’s wrong”? She replied, “stupid people” it’s not American Airlines, it’s American Eagle”. Again my spirit repeated, “Let patience have her perfect work”, for there is a reason beyond what you can see with the eye.
Well, it seems by the time we turned around and retraced our steps to arrive at the American Eagle terminal, they were calling her name to board. However, she hadn’t even gotten her ticket yet or gone through Security. So she was “denied” and that plane left without her. She was placed on ‘standby’ for the next departure and given another ticket. It seemed when she phoned me as I waited around the airport terminal; she would have to stay and wait to see if she could board the potential flight on which she had been placed on ‘standby’. But the good thing was that there was a flight leaving every hour for LAX so she had a lot of time to ‘get it together’ before time to panic over the connecting flight in Los Angeles.
So by the time I arrived home, and she was there waiting, we talked on our cells for a while, and laughed at all that had transpired; adding to the drama, the fact that she'd had a ‘full body scan’ as she went through security. She laughed and said, she dared not leave and try to come back in because they were giving her ‘that look’ that implied, ‘don’t you go out of our view’.
Needless to say, my daughter was having some kinda morning.
So while we were having fun chatting, I told her to look around and see what it was that God needed her to see. That there is a new level that God is taking her on and He is requiring her to be more ‘responsible’ for her decision making and her actions. And I was not just talking about this airport incident. I was talking about her life. That it was time for her to pay attention in this moment and see what God was doing, to listen to ‘wise counsel’ from her Elder and refocus.
In speaking about this with my husband earlier, I told him that God could not allow her to board that plane because she was not in right standing. Any time any of us take a trip, we are usually quite prayerful, remembering always to stand together in our home and we pray for the ones that are leaving as well as the ones that are staying. We pray 'til we meet again', may God watch between me and thee. We thank Him for his covering and much, much more. But this day, my daughter rushed out without even a “thank you Lord” as we shut the door behind us. It was ALL wrong. But because the prayers of the righteous availeth much, God had honored my prayers which caused Him to delay time to allow her the opportunity to ‘be still’, take a breath and refocus on Him as she so knew to do.
Every once in a while we have to take a moment to check ourselves; whether we are in rightstanding with the Father, or have been ignoring His prompts and hints to look at Him or to listen to His still small voice; from His mouth directly in our ear or from the mouth of wisdom.
I gave a lesson on our “Live Prayer Call” event recently where in this teleconference (www.talkshoe.com/tc/89323) the current series is “Hindrances to Prayer”; well, a few weeks ago, the lesson was focused on the hindrance, “Impatience”. And though I know I must have used James 1:4; I know for sure, God did not lead me at that time in the direction of “her perfect work”. However, I digress.
‘Her perfect work’…her perfect work.
I have been fasting and praying these past few days. I love how easy it is for the Lord to stir me up with the little things while I am on a Fast! Glory to God! It’s amazing!
So, as I was talking with my husband, I said to him how ‘her perfect work’ (patience) operates perfectly in ‘the NOW of Life”. I continued and explained that the Now of life is about where you are right now in your “present”. Sometimes we can find ourselves in predicaments that we caused upon ourselves and/or just look up and we’re in them. But when we allow ourselves to take that inward focus, take that deep breath and stop scratching on the sides of the walls trying to get out of the situation or predicament and just turn around, look around with our spiritual eye and see what it is that God wants us to see in that place; then, before we know it, we will be moving forward to the next level.
After we have done what is needed where we are, God will move us to the next place that He has Planned in our Purpose.
As you recall, I had begun my prayers for my daughters’ safe travel the night prior and when I woke up this morning continued to praise and thank the Lord for keeping her, for her angels that He has positioned and charged to watch over her. I thanked and praised Him for her safe travel. Well my words ‘went before her’ on this day. And God would not allow my daughter to board a plane in the wrong attitude. He has His own way of holding time so that we may operate in His moments. So once again, as I stated before, He gave her opportunity to choose to take this moment to ‘be still’ until she saw in His mercy and grace, what He needed her to see and do before He could allow her to safely move from the ground to the airways.
You may not understand prayer the way that I do. But all prayer is not the same. Prayer that goes forth (before) creates an atmosphere of its’ own to ensure that the blessings of the Lord can be rained down upon His people. Yes we daily cover ourselves with the blood of Jesus, and put on our Armor, but we are required to get our hearts right before the Lord. We are required, before entering into the Holy Place to look into the mirror of the Word (James 1:22-25 tells us to wash with the water of the Word) and make sure we are in “right standing” before stepping out on that battlefield, called life.
And God, because He loves us and is merciful and full or grace, will intentionally cause “delay” to take place on our path to ensure His word can operate on our behalf and not against us. For God’s word works both ways. Deuteronomy 28 tells us that, without a doubt.
So, though my daughter may have had a rough start this morning, when she took time to “be still”, her day moved forward in God’s Plan for her purpose. She boarded the next flight to LAX and arrived safely. She’ll sit there a few more hours and see the things that God has planned in her purpose for those around her where she is presently.
If this is what it took for Him to get His place back with her, get her attention focused back on Him; then so be it. Praise the Lord!
This delay hurt nothing. In fact, this delay, changed the atmosphere. In this delay, she has found an opportunity to see her cousin and the children she loves so much as she awaits to board the next flight out of Los Angeles. God met a desire of her heart that she had not prepared for today. That's how God loves. And not only will she be met at the airport by her sister-in-law, but her brother, who would have been working had she arrived ‘on time’, will be standing there to greet her face to face. And that was God’s Plan in their purpose because I know how much my son and daughter love one another and have missed one another these past 2 years. During that time, there have been life threatening situations, job losses, financial crisis, major medical situations, earthquakes, tsunamis and losses of life that have effected our family dearly. And God is allowing them to meet face to face and share feelings and thoughts they’ve held for this God Purposed moment. I love the Lord so much. He is a seamstress; for He knows how to mend the most intricate details of our lives with His own hands. I love the Lord. He is Merciful. He is Truth. He is Freedom.
What is God’s Plan in your purpose? Does it seem that you are in a holding path and are anxious to ‘get out’ however you can? Just ‘be still’ and look around; and begin to look through the eyes of God at what it is that He wants you to see in this place that you are in.
Can the atmosphere around you change because of someone else?
Is there someone that may need to hear, “Jesus loves you”, in this place that you’re selfishly scratching at the sides of the wall to get out of? Is there someone who needs a helping hand in the place where you are right now?
Stop for a moment and just look.
That’s patience having her perfect work; where the Fruit of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Meekness, & temperance) (Galatians 5:22-23) is operating in you at it’s Most Highest capacity.
Don't be like Peter and look at the storm (your predicament, situation, circumstance you have found yourself in), focus on Jesus ahead of you. See God's Plan in your purpose through Jesus.
Everyone is not in this world to reach the same goal, attain the greatest heights. Some of are here to just help someone else run in this race; to be encouragement for the soul; to give meat to the one who needs to hear “thus saith the Lord”.
‘Wait’, ‘be still’, and look…live present in the NOW OF LIFE.
(aka: Prophetess Ramona)